I often return to those days
Forgotten but still alive
Long lonely and bad
Days without you
Days without a soul
Though the heart shed tears
And emptiness surrounded me
I didn’t know how close you were
.
How many nails how much blood
I was an executioner, I was him
Your Son I smote with my sin
And no tears will help
For how many pieces of silver I sold Him
How many times I denied Him
Never verbally
But his image
I buried deep in my soul
.
Somewhere at the bottom a little spark
Smoldered with Your love supported
And when the gates of hell were slamming shut
She showed me a helping hand
God took pity
But so hard to forgive myself
.
Forgetfulness is not given to me
All the crosses are deserved
Sometimes I just weep silently
Snuggled in your cloak
Lead the way Mother
Heart petrified and soul cold
Yet already ruthlessly faithful
.
The world lies in ruins
In the fumes of falsehood Your people are wallowing
I look and cry out
In the desert of life
In the valley of tears
The truth covered with silence
.
I accept Thy will
Before You I kneel
Before the world I will not
.
Another cross like every day
Prayer saves me
Mother guide me
Assist when I fall
Hold me when sadness overwhelms me
I cry out and the stones cry out too
2020
Arkadiusz Niewolski
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