I am going away into oblivion
I am slowly sinking into darkness
I do not ask why
Sins must be paid for
But maybe I’m wrong
Maybe it’s the effects of my own will
I myself flee to “Spain”
In my foolishness I defy you
Always death has marked my path
The first led me down the wrong path
The second convinced me that I could do anything
The third saved what you put together
The fourth warned that today I live and tomorrow I may die
I can’t cry
But crying won’t help
The heart has hardened
Hardened in solitude
The soul thinks straight as You commanded it
The truth is the truth
a lie is a lie
and everything in between is marked by hell
Nobody wants the truth
In a world of illusion a lie is a god
Why can’t I give up?
To die in peace, to forget
I watch and listen as those who cannot bear the truth curse me
The world is killing me
Mother please show me the way!
One spark of your mercy
Will give me strength because now I can no longer walk
I beg! It’s getting harder and harder to get up
Crosses, my Crosses I must carry to Golgotha!
Arkadiusz Niewolski
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