Catholic during the Great Apostasy

I immerse myself in your love. In solitude and silence I try to reject the horror of the world.

I do not believe – I know that You are God!

Often my heart aches with horror when I see the betrayal spreading. What should I do ? How to escape this terrible suffering from You ? So many times, so many nails – without any mercy from those who call on Your Mercy. In the labyrinth of my own soul I straighten the paths leading to You and climb hard to Golgotha with great difficulty.

I see the nails , I see the wounds and the flowing Most Precious Blood! Around the Judases many – like a legion of evil surrounded You.

Our Lord Jesus Christ I know that each rejected smallest sin is one less wound. Yet we still, continue to wound You the Living God One and True. With the filth of the world fed we cry out :

His blood upon us !

So falls punishment after punishment, but will the last faithful survive ?

Down there in the infernal abyss swords of sin forge that wound the soul. Sacrifice and prayer are interrupted.

The fallen one reaps a plentiful harvest, proclaiming his triumph, but the memory of the blasphemers is apparently short. Over 2000 years ago it was the same – The clergy betrayed, the people betrayed. Faith even in the apostles wavered, but the Resurrection trampled Satan’s head.

To their own destruction rush madmen. They do not look at God , they do not look at reason, they do not even look at their children. In wombs murdered, in thousands used, as sacrifices offered. Someone there will shout on the Internet – but who cares about an innocent child.

Their own sins, their own lusts – and everything is driven by money. The curtain has fallen – everything is visible. Lying , heresy, treason. And they say :

Justify Judas!

Life is not the Internet! You will not block, you will not overlook the silence of the Truth.

The choice is simple – either you stand with the Mother of God at the Holy Cross, or condemn yourself to eternal damnation. There is nothing in between . God you are to obey, not human misery.

Arkadiusz Niewolski