Catholic during the Great Apostasy

Grey hair has covered my temples

Fleeting memories remain of youth

Terrible ones full of pain and suffering

Fights over worthless things

Lies for which there will never be an excuse

Time has stopped for a brief moment

I cannot look back on the years lost

Tear wounds that never heal anyway

I don’t want to look into the future because my heart hurts too much

Left here and now full of hope

Left, here and now full of faith

Left, here and now full of love

The question remains

Am I still able to love?

Can I fill myself with faith that gives hope?

Lord, please take away the suffering from those closest to me!

Give me the crosses I deserve

Surely later I will cry at your feet for mercy

I at least know why, and they don’t want to listen to me rejected

They would rather suffer than believe

To look and not see

May these not be their last days

God take away their sickness

And give them to me, I am unworthy to live

It is my fault

I should die under a fence and let my body be torn apart by dogs

I don’t know why you converted me

I don’t know why you woke me up

But I know I don’t deserve to live

In you Hope

In Thee is Salvation

Please remember them!

In the silence of the night I hear nothing

In my soul I pray

You are all I have left!

Arkadiusz Niewolski