Catholic during the Great Apostasy

You left me God

Here where no one understands

I stretch out my hand

And still I feel nothing

I wander like a blind man

For I have become one

.

The truth is the light

But without faith it blinds

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When immersed in darkness

I was dying for my sins

Why did you save me

From the abysses of hell you pulled me out

Why

Now I stand at the crossroads

Bathed in the rain of evil

Helpless

Without tears

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I had. eyes closed

You Lord opened them

Why the picture lost its colors

Maybe the soul has faded

Overwhelmed by sin’s size

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You know that for me death is salvation

Thousands of thoughts and memories

The horror of life without you

Darkness and darkness

Interspersed with the illusory light of hope

People screaming that they don’t want to die

And I bloody soul whispering

I dream of death the world carries me away

Even though I am guilty of hell

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There are no tears of humility flowing on the streets

Only the laughter of betrayal hypocritical can be heard

Forgetfulness of faith and reason

Take me away for I am a wreck of a man

I will not cry and from the cold my heart will not break

2022

Arkadiusz Niewolski