Catholic during the Great Apostasy

when I struggled, thinking of greatness
when my heart was hardening
I thought it was war with you
after each blow I got up
And I didn’t bend my stiff neck
others followed me into the fire
to hell’s gates
and many did not return

See me win

I will also trample Satan
No tear shall fall from my eyes
I will stand face to face with You
but I felt it was wrong
in the silence I saw a shadow
then the fallen one raised his sword
I alone ,I invincible
to fight again
the last battle ,the last fight

Look, I’ll win
getting weaker and weaker
See I win
but I fell but I didn’t get up
though no tear flowed
my defeat was terrible
6 hours were enough
for me to lose everything
lying face down on the ground
defeated for once in my life
I knew I wouldn’t get up
me alone ,me defeated

Your hand ,Your heart
I saw in the last of the moments
Stand up, soldier
In silence seek the truth
Keep your sword
Your time will come

Immersed in prayer
I wait in the shadow of the church nave
I alone, I defeated
With you I will go to find even death

2018

Arkadiusz Niewolski